December 2009
29 posts
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5 years ago, a friend from OK and I were talking about how we hardly ever get snow in TX. He said that he wished he could make it snow for me. Two years later, he died suddenly. By the time I found out, I had already missed the funeral. That same day, it snowed. Then it snowed again on my birthday. In April. Knowing he’s watching over me GMH.
I don’t always beleive...
I haven't blogged in a while.
My mom was upset this last few days for reasons unknown and it made me sad too. But I was happier today. This morning, my mom and I had a heart-to-heart. It was our first in a long time and it felt good.
Today I also submitted my Yale app and ACT scores to some colleges. I am still working on other college apps but today felt like a pretty productive day. My first in a while.
I feel good today....
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Over the summer, my boyfriend passed away from cancer. When none of my other friends wanted to be near me, my old college roommate spent all the money she earned over the summer so she could fly over from another country and spend a week making me food and holding my hand while I cried. She GMH.
I really wish I meet people that when I go to college.
Life well spent
I feel a little down lately. I am not really sure why. I am under all this stress that I am just trying to put aside but it hasn’t been working. I wake up thinking that I have a whole bunch of work that I want to get done and I end up getting nothing done. I tell myself that I am going to exercise a little bit every day but I haven’t been doing anything. I wanted this break to be...
“Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.
- Anon”
– I wish I was more flexible.
Christmas and After-Christmas
My last two days have been very unproductive. My christmas day was like every other day but even more boring. I can’t even remember what I did. Today was also quite a boring day. I went after-Christmas shopping at Wal-Mart, Kohls, and Lucky’s. Then I came home and did my chemistry essay. My mom made the most delicious pasta and I ate so much that I thought I was going to explode. I...
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My senior year, I was the only girl in one of my classes and was always teased by them for it. I still baked for every one of them on their birthday, expecting nothing back. My birthday was the last in the class. I walked in that day to 17 boys holding plates of cookies. They each baked for me, without talking to eachother about it. Those boys GMH
How sweet. That is every...
Break so far...
I been having a good break so far. Very good. Today I got so many gifts. HEHE. I haven’t been doing a lot of hw but I will get around to it.
Things to do…
1. study calculus
2. do history day project
3. revise world lit papers
4. read european book/maybe write essay
5. study chem
6. do chem paper
7. do psychology paper
8. study physics and do notebook and labs
9. do college...
Hopefully this is a good winter break.
Friday was good. I got an unexpected gift. Those are the best. The IB panal discussion was very interesting.
Saturday, I woke up at 9 and spent most of the day at Kohls with my mom and sister.
Sunday, I went to the Sikh temple and then spent the rest of the day at Kohls and the mall. Later in the evening, I finished wrapping Christmas presents and writing cards.
Today, I didn’t do much....
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Last year my boyfriend passed away. On my birthday his parents gave me a memorial ring and told me that they considered me their daughter and unofficially adopted me. His dad said, “I’m not kidding, even twenty years from now we want to be a part of your life”. They GMH.
Sorry for your loss but at least you have two people who truly care about you. I have always wanted to meet...
HEHE
GUY: Girl if i can rearrange the alphabet i would put “u” and “I” together.
GIRL: Theres no need for that because “n” and “o” is already together.
I saw this and I could not stop laughing. I am going to use this someday.
I am such a nerd.
I feel better today. I am almost finished with my historical investigation and you know what, I am happy with it. Well, almost. Today was like every other day but mr. winsatt finally gave us work to do. Yeah! I was almost thinking that he was giving up on us. There are two major major assignments. That’s when I thought that I was such a nerd. Oh well. Being a nerd is cool, right?
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When my daughter was six she told me she was never going to have children and adopt instead. I asked why and she told me there were too many children in the world without a home. Today she is 35 and has adopted four children from all different nationalities. My daughter GMH
People like this lady always make me see the good in humanity. This is also one of the reasons I adore my...
By the end of the day
I feel better now. I looked at college apps again and I saw some things that I was happy with. I wrote Christmas cards for everyone I am giving them out to, I think. I studied for my Physics test. I worked on my Physics notebook.
I did not:
1. do historical investigation
2. physic labs (due tomorrow)
3. anything else
Moving on...
I just needed to get that out of my system. The truth is: I am disappointed in myself and the decisions I have made.
Today was an ok day. School was normal; I just try to stay alive by the end of the day. My sister’s concert went well. I think they did a wonderful job even through I had to stand for over an hour because they ran out of chairs. I really should work on homework but I...
What has happened to me?
I use to be the person who couldn’t put off homework for one day. I use to be the person who would almost cry if I had to turn in something late. I use to be the person who would try her best on every assignment and edit each essay. I use to be the person who I wanted to be. Then senior year came along.
Now, I can’t get work done even if I know it is due the next day. Now, I...
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My uncle volunteers as a Santa every year. Today, a little girl came up and said “I want food for my baby brother” who was in his mother’s arms nearby. When they left, a man behind them, with four kids of his own, took $100 from his wallet and insisted that she had dropped it. Holiday spirit GMH.
That is real holiday spirit.
One More Thing...
I always wanted to explain why I chose anonymous as my title. Well, first of all, I think that my tumblr is completly secret, or at least I hope so. Also, I think it relates to my personality well. I am a pretty secretive person. Many people think they know me but really they do not. I mean, I have known some of my friends for over five years and they still do not know anything about me besides my...
I wanted to use tumblr to record my thoughts everyday but I haven’t been doing a very good job. Yesterday, I slept very early but I still felt tired all day today. I seriously failed my chem test today, even though we were suppose to take it as a class. My psychology test was all right. I am somewhat happy still because I am finally understanding calculus again. I was planning to work on the...
I haven’t really been busy but I haven’t been free either. December is a busy month and I am just waiting for January. Right now, I am unsure about everything, including college, christmas, and family.
Epic Fail
Everyday is beginning to feel the same and life is a blur. I feel like I sleep late but don’t manage to get any homework done. Mr. Winsatt said the wasteland was in 10th grade and we have already conquered it. But then I wonder why I feel like I am still trapped inside of it.
GMH
So, today I saw that GMH stated that it was like FML but for optimistic people. I don’t know if I was optimistic before I was introduced to GMH or after I began to read it regularly.
The Weekend
My weekends always pass by so fast, so to recap:
Friday- I went to watch New Moon. The movie was pretty long and much better then the first one, maybe because we get to see more of Jacob. When Rob Patz was going to take off his shirt, I almost puked. EWW.
Saturday- Since I was not able to clean up the house on Friday, my mom made me skip the volunteering event in order to clean the house. After...
I feel...
Today, well, I won’t say I was happy but I was content. School was the same except I do not like calculus as much as I did last week. I am happy that I get to watch NEW MOON tomorrow. I have been waiting patiently for a long time and I am super excited. I have senior potraits the same day my Hamlet essay for Winsatt is due. I want to do it over the weekend so I don’t end up with bags...
I was still unhappy today but I slowly got through the day. I hope that tomorrow won’t be such a drag.
My realization
I need to grow up and accept life the way it is. I always complain about things I cannot change. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I didn’t care about my grades or what people thought of me or any other crap life throws at me. But then I realize it just wouldn’t be me.
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There’s a girl in my school who gives every person in school a birthday card and candy for their birthday. She tries to deliver them anonymously through friends and teachers. She does this for all 800 of us and doesn’t even want credit. Her generosity and ambition to make everyone feel special GMH
Thats so kind. I remember that I never got birthday cards or presents from people at...
I fail at life. Literally.
I am so upset today that I cannot find words to express my disappointment in myself. I am going to promise myself to work harder, procrastinate less, and learn to not worry over every little thing. I am having a lot of self-doubt right now, especially with college applications. Before I started filling them out, I thought I had a good chance of getting into some of the top UCs but over time, I see...